"Love"? What is "Love"? by Eric Landin

"LOVE"... what exactly is it? No one really knows. We just know that we want it. People live their lives in one purpose, to find "LOVE". It's funny because we're looking for something that is invisible and we dont even know what it is. Something in us has the want and determination to do even the most stupid thing possible to attain it. Your emotions surround your body in a cacoon of confusion and deseperation; anxiety and jelousy; anger and happiness. And all that you get from it is a "good feeling". It gets addictive, like a drug, and soon your so dependant on that feeling to even smile. It gets me so mad that people think they know what it is, that its as simple as "I LOVE you" when in reality its more than that. Its the feeling of wanting to wake in the morning and the first thing you see is her face glow in the bright smile of the sun, or the knowing that your never gonna get tired of that smile, the consistancy of her beautiful face in your mind. It's the wanting to spend the rest of your life with her. The elusive "LOVE" can hide itself in many different things, but you have to be smart to not fall for its trap. I've fallen in its trap once, and let me tell ya, it's hard to get back on your feet. It takes time. I thought I was in "LOVE", and it had me fooled. But I realized too late the it wasn't "LOVE". No, no. I realized that what it really was is that I was just used to the fact that I was with her, it seem like a routine. Like something I did everyday, a habit, and I kept going back (I was so stupid). The very last time I was with her, everything seemed so dull, boring. I had mixed emotions for weeks and didnt know what to do. But it all hit me to the head like a jab from a boxer, and soon everything was clear to me, it wasnt "LOVE", I had to rid myself of that cacoon that had me isolated from the rest of my life, from my real search to find the actual "LOVE". I had to rid myself from that fictional fantasy and start living in the real world. Alas, my journey continues and along the road I met someone new, someone special. Today all that is in my mind is her beautiful face, and for some reason all I want to do is be with her. I could waste countless hours just getting lost in her eyes. Could this story have a happy ending? Only one way to find out....